Anyways lets see so this week I will start with ... The exchanges that I had with Sister Phillips! Lol okay so seriously I never got nervous or anxious about any of it! And that day we were scheduled to teach an investigator of ours that we had only taught once so .... yeah despite all of that I still wasn't nervous or scared. And honestly I have no idea why! Hahaha with everything else I always felt like a scared little kitten ready to run and hide in a corner if something went wrong pero on that day I felt none of that! Seriously! It was weird! But sobrang rewarding! WOW! I learned a little bit about being a senior and LET ME TELL YOU! It aint easy! (Lol I still do hope to be a junior for as long as possible!) Lol being and FEELING responsible for everything was new. I am used to following my little senior around, and just letting her kind of take the lead. I just have to make sure that I'm always prepared. And that's really it hahaha. Pero on Tuesday when I had those exchanges the questions that I usually ask her, Sister Phillips was asking ME. I was in charge of when we had study and when we went out and for how long we stayed out. I lead the planning and well EVERY THING. Lol I should have been scared but I just wasn't. When we went to our morning appointments, they were all less active members and it was literally just us two lol. So this really put both of us in a position to rely on the Spirit to help us understand and also to give us the things that we needed to invite the spirit into our lessons. To our utter astonishment this is exactly what happened! Honestly at the end of the day when we were able to reflect and evaluate we realized that we felt the spirit STRONGLY in every single appointment that we had. Now please don't for a second think that my temporary companion and I were speaking fluently all day, because we WEREN'T. Lol we really weren't. I still made a lot of mistakes and so did she,through all of this tho we knew with out a doubt that the Spirit was THERE and it was strong and because of this it testified of every thing that we taught, especially when we bore our testimonies.
In D&C 25:2-4 it says, "A revelation I give unto youconcerning my will;and if thou art faithful and walk in the paths of virtue before me, I will preserve thy life, and thou shalt receive an inheritance in Zion. Behold, thy sins are forgiven thee, and thou art an elect lady, whom I have called. Murmur not because of the things which thou hast not seen, for they are withheld from thee and from the world, which is wisdom in me in a time to come." Now these versus are revelation given to Emma Smith. I love this chapter because the words are for all of us. As are ALL the words in the scriptures but these especially FOR US. Verse two and four are my favorite. And I am sharing this scripture because I literally felt the wisdom of this on my exchanges. Especially in verse 4, when it says "murmur not because of the things which thou hast not seen." Seriously on my mission this is SO true!!!!!! There is a lot that goes on here in my area, and especially at home with my family that I just DO NOT understand. Sometimes it can be very frustrating and very discouraging because always, I want to help but most time I just can't. Whether it be because of my geographic location OR because its bawal for whatever reason these things happen. I have been challenged quite a bit but you know what I have come to REALLY understand? Its that in life we grow and progress the most when we are being challenged. It goes back to the principle of humility, with out this Christ like attribute we will never be able to receive from Heavenly Father the things and blessings that we so desperately deserve in this life. Just like humility in order for us to grow in grace and wisdom we have to understand how to trust Him. And how to just let go of all the worry and fear that we experience on a daily basis.
I know its not easy. Trust me. I know haha. Pero at the same time I am seeing just HOW rewarding it is when you do. Even just the tiniest bit. That's why it is SO important to SHARE the Gospel In WHAT EVER capacity or form you can. We MUST do this.This one principle alone motivates me more and more ever day. It helps me open my mouth and just speak. To anybody, anywhere. And it is simply because I want other people to feel the joy and peace that I have felt from this Gospel. I also want other peoples lives to be blessed from knowing and truly FEELING the truth. I know and understand how important this is, more than ever before in my life and it has caused me to work more passionately every day because its not for me. It is for the people. In my area and just in general. We all came to earth with the expectation that we would return to Heavenly Father. I know this. And because of it I want to make sure that ALL of God's children have a chance to hear this Gospel. I know that I personally am not going to minister to every living soul in my area so that this can happen, pero I do know that I can continually strive every day to be a more effective tool in HIS hands so that I can help his children, all those precious precious souls bring to pass MUCH righteousness.
This work and this Gospel incite feelings and desires that I feel to the very core of my soul and because of it I cannot and will never be able to deny what I KNOW to be true. No matter what happens, I will never deny or forsake my God. Simply because through my experiences so far I have come to know of His goodness and His mercy and what is MOST important to me at the end of every day is that I continue to grow closer to Him and that I continue to come closer to the person that He sees that I am. NOT the person I think I am or I think I should become but who He wants me to be and who He requires me to be. I fall short for sure almost every time but what I have learned is that my mere honest effort has taken me farther than I EVER thought I could go. And I know its because through my efforts He is able to lift me up and literally give me everything I stand in need of. These blessings are spiritual and temporal and they reach into the eternities.
I hope you all had a good week! I love you! And I am so so grateful for the sacred opportunity I have been given to serve a mission. I love you all! And pray for your safety and health!
Love you! See you again next week!
Sister Fonua :)